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رسانه اینترنتی مای موویز MyMoviz جامعترین سایت فیلم و سریال
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رسانه اینترنتی مای موویز MyMoviz جامعترین سایت فیلم و سریال
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The examination is complete.
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You can now collect the body.
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We will send you
a copy of the report.
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Thank you.
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Mr. Alper. what does the report state?
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When will the car arrive Timur?
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It will be here soon.
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-Your in-law is driving. right?
-Yes.
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He was at the house yesterday.
You must have seen him.
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Yes. I remember now.
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-Which in-law brother?
-Salim.
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He came immediately
after hearing the news.
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They will start
transporting the corpse soon as well.
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I just spoke to the driver.
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But we will arrive first.
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-Shouldn't we wait?
-No. let's go.
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We will take care of the
arrangements there.
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Corpse?
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Corpse!
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What a strange word.
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When someone dies.
their name dies with them.
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How strange that we have no names
when we are born and also when we die.
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Right until yesterday
you had a name.
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Now will your name
just be "corpse"?
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What would happen if
none of us ever had a name?
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Nameless!
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What do names bring us?
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If your name is gone. what
happens to your smile; your laughter;
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your concerns; your longings; your hopes?
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Are they wiped off as well?
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Are we supposed to
call you corpse now?
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Brother.
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My condolences daughter.
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-Thank you.
-Welcome.
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Thanks.
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Come on.
Let's not waste time.
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Timur. you sit in the back.
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Mustafa. you sit next to me.
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Daughter. don't
you have a suitcase?
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No. just this.
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Mustafa. are we
going in the right direction?
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My mind is a mess.
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Yes. this is the correct road.
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-Who informed you?
-Fusun.
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What did she say?
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She called and
said he was in a car accident.
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Then later at the airport...
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My mom and dad?
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They too think
it was a car accident.
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Does Fusun know?
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Yes.
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Don't worry. she
won't tell anyone anything.
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She has gone to the village
to comfort our parents.
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Sometimes
in my dreams I see my dead self.
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I see myself rising up to the sky.
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I feel so light and free.
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It is such a different feeling.
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"You are free like all the lonely people.
and lonely like all the free people."
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Then suddenly I crash into nothingness.
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Did you also have similar dreams?
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Is this red balloon also lonely?
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Is it free now?
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What am I saying?
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Where are you now Ercument?
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Where?
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Kids. what do you say?
Should we stop for a break?
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Timur hasn't eaten
anything for two days.
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Mustafa. you must be hungry too.
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There is a saying in our parts.
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The parts that feel grief and
hunger are not the same areas.
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Okay.
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I will stop at a convenient place.
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I always thought rheumatism was
something that only affected old people.
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Why did it happen to
you at such a young age?
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Was it because we slept in
freezing-cold rooms in the winters?
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Do you remember how we
tried to warm each other?
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You would always start a fight in bed.
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You are taking up too much space.
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You are sleeping with your eyes open.
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You're too scared to sleep.
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How I wish that would
be the extent of our fears.
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Now you are somewhere
sleeping in a freezing-cold place.
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Your body was cold.
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I guess that is what
happens when you die.
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I guess that is the difference
between birth and death.
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You become hard and rigid.
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What if it were the opposite?
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Would death perhaps not
be so frightening anymore?
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The departed was the
best one among these three.
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He was a solid character.
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He wouldn't even hurt an ant.
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They say Allah takes
those he loves most first.
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That is probably what happened.
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True.
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You see Nihan there.
She is totally crazy.
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She has caused so much
trouble and woe for her family.
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Her elder brother there.
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Only has money on his mind.
Nothing else.
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Ah. Ercument.
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Ah. my boy.
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He destroyed both us and his afterlife.
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Breaking news.
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The national defense ministry
issued an announcement.
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A martyr has fallen as part
of the Pence Kilit operation.
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Here are the details.
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On 27 August. infantryman
Bunyamin Barli was martyred
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the defense ministry announced.
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He suffered a fall
yesterday and all efforts
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to save him in
hospital proved futile.
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The pain of martyrdom was
felt in a household in Bitlis.
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We express our condolences
before starting our bulletin.
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Yesterday as well...
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Seems like there
is no peace for anyone.
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We just can't fit in this huge world.
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Do you have a light?
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Yes.
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Something's nagging
me from the inside today.
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I have a premonition.
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I feel as if the world
is closing in on me.
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It happens sometimes.
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I pray to Allah that
something bad doesn't happen.
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What do we come
into this world for?
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Why have these kids
come into this world?
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To be happy?
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Do you think the world is a
good place to come to be happy?
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What are our aims?
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Why do we live?
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I am often fed up too.
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I am on the verge of giving up.
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Then a moment comes and
the goodness in me triumphs.
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I say okay. I will continue.
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A little bit more.
a little bit more.
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Why did you give up so soon?
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Why?
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Wasn't it you who
always spoke of resisting?
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Did your excitement die?
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Did you lose the
strength to fight?
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When we were kids we thought
no harm could come to us.
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We were happy for no reason.
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We lived on cloud nine.
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I used to protect you from
everyone and everything.
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What happened?
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Wasn't I able to protect you?
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Is it okay if I smoke?
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We don't
usually smoke in the car.
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But just this time you can smoke.
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Roll down the window a bit.
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Tell me Mustafa.
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How did this happen?
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Did he have worries. problems?
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I don't know.
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We were all shocked.
None of us expected it.
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We were far away.
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We couldn't check on the boy.
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I really don't know.
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Lately the departed had
become devout and pious.
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Really?
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For the last few months he
would pray five times a day.
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We would tease him.
calling him a godly man.
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He had also stopped drinking alcohol.
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I didn't know this.
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So... to knowingly... You
are great Allah. please forgive him.
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To do this knowing that
it is a sin... no greater sin...
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Only you know Allah. please forgive him...
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Don't look down Ercument.
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It is a void.
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A dark void.
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Which void were you
trying to fill with religion?
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Had you really become pious?
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Did you seek refuge in religion?
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Why?
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Out of love? Fear?
Justice? Trust?
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Did you also start believing
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that Moses lifted his
cane and parted the sea?
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That Noah filled all the
world's animals into an ark?
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That Isaac was offered as sacrifice?
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That Jesus was crucified?
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What did religion mean to you?
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Did you just want to believe?
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We never spoke about such things.
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I wish we had.
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Perhaps I would be able to
understand the void inside you.
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Our village imam. Nizamettin.
is a very honest and just man.
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But the fact is this is a
major sin in our religion.
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What will we do if he refuses
to perform the funeral prayer?
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He had recently mentioned this
in one of his sermons.
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Come now.
How is that even possible?
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I don't know.
Who knows. it might be.
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Not a chance.
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Plus they don't even know.
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And we don't have to
announce it to the whole world.
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Daughter. it is a small place.
Everyone will tell each other.
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Who is going to tell each other?
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There are 4 of us in the car.
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Nobody will know if
we don't say anything.
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Fine daughter. Fine.
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There will be a
funeral prayer and ceremony.
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And that's that!
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I don't understand.
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Will they not perform
an ablution on the body?
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Will no one notice
while washing the body?
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We will figure out a solution.
You calm down.
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No need for you
to think about this.
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The man didn't say anything.
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Take a stance even
if it is for once in your life.
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What's there
to take a stance about?
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Nothing. fine.
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You know Mustafa
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I was a driver at the post office.
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My life is spent on these roads.
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Back and forth. Back and forth.
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I know it like the
palm of my hand.
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Up ahead there is a fork.
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We save at least 30-40
km when we take the fork.
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I know it well.
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-That's life.
-What can you do! Life!
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This is what this job taught me.
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Right.
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Yes Suleyman.
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Hello to you as well. thank you.
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We are on the way.
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God willing we will
be there in the evening.
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You thought well. thank you.
God bless you.
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Okay... I will speak to the
kids and get back to you...
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Thank you. God bless you.
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Kids. it was Suleyman on the phone.
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He says let's bury the body as
soon as we get there in the evening.
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I am not sure.
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Why?
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It will be dark by the time we arrive.
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Plus I also checked the weather forecast.
It will be rainy.
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Are we going to do the
burial in the dark and rain?
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No way. How will his friends
be able to make it?
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Are they trying to
pull off a fait accompli?
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What are you
talking about daughter?
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A corpse can't be kept waiting.
It is a sin.
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His soul will suffer.
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Suffer what?
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Repent girl. Repent.
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Say something. will you.
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I am in no condition
to think about anything Nihan.
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No.
Impossible.
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Where will the body be kept then?
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I will find a solution.
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You don't need to worry about that.
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Fine. It is impossible to tell you
anything.
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You don't even
listen to your elders.
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Do as you please.
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Can you stop?
I want some air.
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Okay. we will stop
at an appropriate place.
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You smoke a lot more now.
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A bit.
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Why do you think he did it?
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I have no idea.
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I never noticed
that he had any issues.
258
00:24:43.926 --> 00:24:45.246
You know what they say
259
00:24:46.926 --> 00:24:52.166
it being some sort of revenge to
hold those left behind accountable.
260
00:24:53.526 --> 00:24:54.486
Revenge from us?
261
00:24:54.646 --> 00:24:56.246
Why? What did we do?
262
00:24:58.646 --> 00:25:00.006
I don't know.
263
00:25:03.606 --> 00:25:06.286
Perhaps not us but someone else.
264
00:25:06.886 --> 00:25:09.846
Perhaps he had no worries.
Maybe just emptiness.
265
00:25:11.446 --> 00:25:13.086
I don't know.
266
00:25:15.646 --> 00:25:18.046
I feel like my head
is about to explode.
267
00:25:25.126 --> 00:25:29.646
If only there was a note. a letter.
We would have known at least.
268
00:25:33.446 --> 00:25:36.326
Now we will have to live
with this unknowingness.
269
00:25:58.166 --> 00:26:02.846
For the first time in my life I wish
there was something called an afterlife.
270
00:26:04.846 --> 00:26:09.766
If there was one. I would ask him
at our first meeting: "Why. why."
271
00:26:12.646 --> 00:26:14.486
You still don't believe.
272
00:26:15.646 --> 00:26:18.006
What about it
am I supposed to believe?
273
00:26:25.326 --> 00:26:28.406
You know. when I was
younger. I considered it too.
274
00:26:28.926 --> 00:26:34.406
But then I realized that I didn't have
anyone to blame or hold responsible.
275
00:26:35.046 --> 00:26:37.166
I removed the thought from my mind.
276
00:26:37.806 --> 00:26:40.286
Imagine. I had no one I could blame.
277
00:26:40.806 --> 00:26:42.486
What do you mean by I have no one?
278
00:26:42.846 --> 00:26:43.686
So are we nothing then.
279
00:26:43.846 --> 00:26:47.046
My mother. father. me. your nephews?
280
00:26:47.206 --> 00:26:49.966
What's that got to do with anything?
That's not what I said.
281
00:26:52.086 --> 00:26:54.246
I never ever considered such a thing.
282
00:26:54.606 --> 00:26:56.206
I think it is very selfish.
283
00:26:56.366 --> 00:26:58.646
People should think about
those who are left behind.
284
00:27:02.366 --> 00:27:04.166
You know how sometimes
285
00:27:05.886 --> 00:27:09.846
we get bored by the movies
we watch. or the books we read.
286
00:27:10.686 --> 00:27:13.286
We think of quitting halfway.
287
00:27:13.446 --> 00:27:18.766
But then we continue to watch or read just
to see where that stupidity will lead.
288
00:27:20.006 --> 00:27:22.046
Life. I guess. is like that.
289
00:27:22.686 --> 00:27:25.886
We continue living just to see
where it will eventually lead.
290
00:27:26.806 --> 00:27:27.966
Who knows.
291
00:27:30.726 --> 00:27:34.686
Perhaps it wasn't
about blame or revenge.
292
00:27:36.926 --> 00:27:39.526
Just that he didn't want to continue
watching
293
00:27:39.686 --> 00:27:41.926
the stupid movie we continue to watch.
294
00:27:42.086 --> 00:27:43.326
He turned it off.
295
00:27:44.726 --> 00:27:45.606
Maybe.
296
00:27:51.206 --> 00:27:54.326
By the way. I never
noticed how lonely you are.
297
00:27:54.526 --> 00:27:56.886
I wish you had children.
298
00:28:00.366 --> 00:28:01.326
I mean...
299
00:28:02.286 --> 00:28:04.766
Some of us are...
300
00:28:06.846 --> 00:28:10.126
...not interested in
passing onto kids
301
00:28:10.366 --> 00:28:15.126
...our loneliness. oldness.
piteous existence. and death.
302
00:28:15.326 --> 00:28:16.486
Don't you think?
303
00:28:17.126 --> 00:28:19.526
True but children means happiness.
304
00:28:21.566 --> 00:28:24.806
A wise person once said
if only the children
305
00:28:24.966 --> 00:28:29.606
I didn't wish to bring into this world
realized the happiness they owe me.
306
00:28:30.406 --> 00:28:32.126
Was he wrong?
307
00:28:42.846 --> 00:28:48.446
Look. poems. letters.
children. streets. cats...
308
00:28:48.606 --> 00:28:52.486
Trust me love. only death doesn't exist!
Immortality for us.
309
00:28:52.646 --> 00:28:54.446
Death will quietly be removed
from those leather-bound
310
00:28:54.606 --> 00:28:56.846
books for those of us
who want to believe this.
311
00:28:57.006 --> 00:29:00.406
You will see love.
Be patient. You will see.
312
00:29:00.566 --> 00:29:06.766
No longer will any person or struggle in
this world be left to defend itself alone.
313
00:29:06.926 --> 00:29:09.806
How much you loved this
poem by Kucuk Iskender.
314
00:29:10.566 --> 00:29:12.886
You would passionately shout it out aloud.
315
00:29:13.446 --> 00:29:15.846
I wonder why I never loved poems.
316
00:29:16.006 --> 00:29:18.766
I never thought of this until now.
317
00:29:18.926 --> 00:29:21.086
I don't like poems.
How odd.
318
00:29:21.246 --> 00:29:25.086
Tell me Mustafa.
What was his problem?
319
00:29:26.086 --> 00:29:28.166
I really don't know.
320
00:29:28.326 --> 00:29:30.966
Ercument was not
the talkative kind.
321
00:29:31.126 --> 00:29:32.726
He kept to himself.
322
00:29:32.886 --> 00:29:36.046
I never saw him have a
problem or quarrel with anyone.
323
00:29:36.206 --> 00:29:38.206
He would do his job and go home.
324
00:29:38.966 --> 00:29:42.406
Was it related to work perhaps?
325
00:29:42.846 --> 00:29:45.846
No. Our work is not stressful.
326
00:29:46.006 --> 00:29:48.006
We work in the factory's
international relations department.
327
00:29:48.166 --> 00:29:51.006
It is desk-based.
All day on a computer.
328
00:29:51.606 --> 00:29:54.246
Did he do it
because of debt perhaps?
329
00:29:54.406 --> 00:29:57.486
Such things often happen
because of debts. you know.
330
00:29:57.806 --> 00:29:58.926
No.
331
00:29:59.166 --> 00:30:01.646
As far as I know
he had no financial issues.
332
00:30:04.726 --> 00:30:08.846
Was it something to do with women?
333
00:30:09.006 --> 00:30:10.886
I don't know
much about his private life.
334
00:30:11.046 --> 00:30:13.006
He didn't talk about such things.
335
00:30:14.486 --> 00:30:17.806
I hope it wasn't something else.
336
00:30:17.966 --> 00:30:21.526
Someone might have
done something to him.
337
00:30:22.366 --> 00:30:24.166
No. They performed an autopsy.
338
00:30:24.326 --> 00:30:26.646
It would have come out if
it was something else.
339
00:30:26.806 --> 00:30:28.126
He did it himself.
340
00:30:37.246 --> 00:30:39.686
It is not even worth growing
any of this.
341
00:30:40.766 --> 00:30:41.646
Huh?
342
00:30:42.726 --> 00:30:45.646
I am saying it isn't worth growing crops.
343
00:30:45.806 --> 00:30:49.366
Gasoline. fertilizer. worker costs...
344
00:30:49.526 --> 00:30:52.046
How can you earn money after all that?
345
00:30:53.046 --> 00:30:54.566
It is not something I know much about.
346
00:30:54.726 --> 00:30:57.686
That's how it is.
Farming is over in this country.
347
00:30:57.846 --> 00:30:59.286
No one is doing it anymore
348
00:30:59.446 --> 00:31:01.846
Because it's just not worth it.
349
00:31:05.166 --> 00:31:06.166
Shame.
350
00:31:11.126 --> 00:31:15.766
Recently my kids were watching
a documentary on television about animals
351
00:31:15.926 --> 00:31:19.446
and such. I saw it there.
352
00:31:19.606 --> 00:31:23.366
These whales all
committed mass suicide.
353
00:31:24.326 --> 00:31:27.766
In ancient Rome they
believed that the whales were being
354
00:31:27.926 --> 00:31:29.806
punished by Neptune the sea god.
355
00:31:29.966 --> 00:31:31.606
But that's not the case Salim.
356
00:31:31.766 --> 00:31:33.446
They lose their sense of
direction so they wash up ashore.
357
00:31:33.606 --> 00:31:35.246
It is not suicide you know.
358
00:31:37.086 --> 00:31:40.206
So it is not just humans
who lose their sense of direction then.
359
00:31:40.366 --> 00:31:41.966
Animals too.
360
00:31:43.446 --> 00:31:46.886
Life. death
are interesting concepts.
361
00:31:47.246 --> 00:31:50.606
I suppose we are the only beings
who know we will die one day.
362
00:31:50.766 --> 00:31:54.366
Perhaps that is why we
are always a bit sorrowful Salim.
363
00:31:55.886 --> 00:32:01.646
You actually sign your
death warrant the very day you are born.
364
00:32:01.966 --> 00:32:03.006
That's so.
365
00:32:03.166 --> 00:32:05.686
One day it will happen.
366
00:32:05.846 --> 00:32:11.206
But what matters is how much
you serve the creator while alive.
367
00:32:13.006 --> 00:32:13.966
Isn't that so?
368
00:32:15.726 --> 00:32:18.286
-I don't know.
-It is.
369
00:32:18.446 --> 00:32:23.046
Because there is nowhere to run
when the angel of death comes.
370
00:32:24.086 --> 00:32:29.806
Whatever and whenever
is destined for us will be.
371
00:32:32.046 --> 00:32:35.886
May Allah grant us
all a fortuitous death.
372
00:32:36.046 --> 00:32:38.926
May all of our resting
places be in heaven.
373
00:32:40.406 --> 00:32:42.246
Perhaps our
heaven and hell are all here.
374
00:32:42.406 --> 00:32:43.646
How would we know?
375
00:32:43.806 --> 00:32:45.726
As if anyone been
to the other side and returned.
376
00:32:45.886 --> 00:32:47.686
Repent.
Don't say such things.
377
00:32:47.846 --> 00:32:53.326
You must believe in the
afterlife. heaven and hell.
378
00:32:53.486 --> 00:32:56.246
Else. God forbid. you will lose faith.
379
00:32:58.326 --> 00:32:59.726
No. not acceptable.
380
00:33:00.606 --> 00:33:02.646
We have lost all fear of death.
381
00:33:02.806 --> 00:33:04.766
We don't even think of death.
382
00:33:04.926 --> 00:33:11.566
So as a result we feel no fear when
the afterlife and death are mentioned.
383
00:33:12.526 --> 00:33:15.326
People have grown tired of being afraid.
384
00:33:15.486 --> 00:33:18.686
As a result. I guess things that should
scare them don't affect them any longer.
385
00:33:18.846 --> 00:33:21.006
That is not the kind of fear
I am talking about.
386
00:33:21.166 --> 00:33:27.206
I am talking about faith
and devotion from the heart.
387
00:33:27.366 --> 00:33:29.926
I am talking about being afraid
of making a mistake.
388
00:33:30.086 --> 00:33:32.246
Not about being afraid
of someone else.
389
00:33:33.046 --> 00:33:39.566
Nothing personal. but youth
today have no more faith.
390
00:33:39.726 --> 00:33:43.286
My heart wouldn't ache this
much if Ercument had been martyred.
391
00:33:43.446 --> 00:33:49.966
Very recently a specialist sergeant
from our village got martyred in Syria.
392
00:33:50.126 --> 00:33:51.006
Really?
393
00:33:51.166 --> 00:33:53.366
At first his family
were devastated of course.
394
00:33:53.526 --> 00:33:58.166
But then an MP came. the governor came.
the mayor came.
395
00:33:58.326 --> 00:34:01.926
the commander came. they all came.
His family were so proud.
396
00:34:02.286 --> 00:34:04.126
It is important of course.
397
00:34:04.286 --> 00:34:05.566
Think about it.
398
00:34:05.726 --> 00:34:08.486
You give your life for something
you believe in.
399
00:34:08.646 --> 00:34:10.806
There is no greater
form of worship.
400
00:34:11.646 --> 00:34:12.926
Ah. Ercument. ah!
401
00:34:16.166 --> 00:34:17.686
I wish you were martyred.
402
00:34:19.686 --> 00:34:21.726
What difference does it make?
You are simply dead.
403
00:34:21.886 --> 00:34:23.606
Don't say that.
404
00:34:23.766 --> 00:34:25.566
It makes a lot of difference.
405
00:34:26.126 --> 00:34:27.446
This earth. this soil...
406
00:34:38.126 --> 00:34:41.566
Hello uncle Suleyman...
it's me Nihan... thank you uncle...
407
00:34:41.726 --> 00:34:43.606
No. we are still on the way...
408
00:34:44.126 --> 00:34:45.926
He is being
transported behind us...
409
00:34:46.806 --> 00:34:48.646
Thank you. thank you.
410
00:34:50.926 --> 00:34:52.246
Yes. that is why I called.
411
00:34:52.406 --> 00:34:57.606
No uncle. my in-law told us...
we are not in favor...
412
00:34:59.126 --> 00:35:01.006
It will be dark by the
time we get there uncle.
413
00:35:01.206 --> 00:35:02.766
And it is raining there.
414
00:35:02.926 --> 00:35:05.566
This is not possible
in the dark and mud.
415
00:35:05.726 --> 00:35:08.966
We want to have a
proper funeral ceremony...
416
00:35:11.606 --> 00:35:14.966
I spoke to my brother uncle.
He is of the same opinion...
417
00:35:16.886 --> 00:35:21.246
No uncle... speak to him if you like but
he will tell you the same thing...
418
00:35:23.286 --> 00:35:25.606
Okay. Okay. uncle.
419
00:35:26.006 --> 00:35:28.206
How are my mom and dad?
420
00:35:35.126 --> 00:35:36.486
Okay.
421
00:35:37.646 --> 00:35:39.246
Okay. will tell him.
422
00:35:40.046 --> 00:35:41.606
Okay. bye.
423
00:35:44.526 --> 00:35:46.126
How are they?
424
00:35:46.286 --> 00:35:47.806
How do you think?
425
00:35:49.486 --> 00:35:51.166
What will we do?
The weather is hot.
426
00:35:51.326 --> 00:35:53.206
Where will we store the corpse?
427
00:35:53.926 --> 00:35:55.486
You too brother?
428
00:35:56.486 --> 00:35:59.206
Is it corpse now?
No more name!
429
00:35:59.366 --> 00:36:02.286
No need to get upset.
It is just a manner of speaking.
430
00:36:03.726 --> 00:36:06.126
I am thinking.
I will find a solution.
431
00:36:09.926 --> 00:36:13.686
Amidst all this we have to
deal with this in-law of ours.
432
00:36:13.926 --> 00:36:15.606
Quiet Nihan.
He will hear.
433
00:36:15.766 --> 00:36:17.486
So what. let him hear.
434
00:36:18.686 --> 00:36:20.846
Anyway. come let's walk for a bit.
435
00:36:23.686 --> 00:36:26.606
I have been holding
my tongue since morning.
436
00:36:26.766 --> 00:36:29.006
It is not just your pain.
437
00:36:29.166 --> 00:36:31.326
What is with this behavior of yours?
438
00:36:31.486 --> 00:36:32.886
What about my behavior?
439
00:36:33.046 --> 00:36:34.886
Accusatory all the time.
440
00:36:36.166 --> 00:36:37.526
Ok I get it.
441
00:36:38.126 --> 00:36:40.166
You are angry. enraged.
442
00:36:40.326 --> 00:36:42.486
But you are angry and outraged
at everyone and everything.
443
00:36:42.646 --> 00:36:44.286
You are in a constant rage.
444
00:36:46.566 --> 00:36:48.846
And you don't
get upset at anyone. right?
445
00:36:50.286 --> 00:36:51.806
Of course I do.
446
00:36:51.966 --> 00:36:54.926
I too have questions I
don't have the answers to.
447
00:36:55.086 --> 00:36:57.686
Do you think this is
easy for me to accept?
448
00:36:58.526 --> 00:36:59.766
My patience is at its limit.
449
00:36:59.926 --> 00:37:01.326
I can barely hold myself together.
450
00:37:01.486 --> 00:37:02.886
This trip already feels like it
has lasted a thousand years.
451
00:37:03.046 --> 00:37:04.606
Calm down a bit.
452
00:37:06.086 --> 00:37:08.966
Should I act like I have been stripped of
all emotion. Like you?
453
00:37:09.126 --> 00:37:11.486
What is wrong with you.
for God's sake?
454
00:37:11.646 --> 00:37:13.606
As if only your world
has come crashing down.
455
00:37:13.766 --> 00:37:15.206
How selfish you are.
456
00:37:16.006 --> 00:37:19.286
Is that how I appear from
the lofty chair of a bank manager?
457
00:37:19.446 --> 00:37:21.446
It is impossible to talk with you Nihan.
458
00:37:27.446 --> 00:37:29.206
Timur come on let's go.
459
00:37:29.366 --> 00:37:31.166
Let's go before it gets dark.
460
00:38:09.726 --> 00:38:12.246
Any progress daughter?
Did you sort it out?
461
00:38:12.406 --> 00:38:14.366
I will sort it.
I have an idea.
462
00:38:16.686 --> 00:38:19.806
By the way. can you
give me the imam's number?
463
00:38:19.966 --> 00:38:21.726
-What for?
-I will speak to him.
464
00:38:22.326 --> 00:38:25.246
What for?
I will talk to him in any case.
465
00:38:25.406 --> 00:38:28.926
Just give me the number.
I will talk to him.
466
00:38:29.086 --> 00:38:31.366
I will give it to you when we stop.
467
00:38:32.126 --> 00:38:33.926
What solution did you think of?
468
00:38:34.086 --> 00:38:36.606
I will call the hospital.
The state hospital.
469
00:38:36.766 --> 00:38:37.886
Why?
470
00:38:38.046 --> 00:38:39.846
They have a morgue there.
471
00:38:42.726 --> 00:38:44.686
I will call soon.
472
00:38:45.366 --> 00:38:47.566
I am not sure how it will work.
473
00:38:47.726 --> 00:38:49.126
It will work.
474
00:38:50.246 --> 00:38:52.006
He will stay there this evening.
475
00:38:52.166 --> 00:38:55.086
In the morning we will get the washing
done and not leave it for the village.
476
00:38:55.526 --> 00:38:57.966
Fine.
I won't say anything anymore.
477
00:38:58.126 --> 00:39:00.006
Whatever I say is taken the wrong way.
478
00:39:00.166 --> 00:39:02.206
Do as you see fit.
479
00:39:08.486 --> 00:39:10.366
Will your soul really be in turmoil?
480
00:39:10.526 --> 00:39:12.606
That's what they are saying.
481
00:39:12.806 --> 00:39:15.406
Or is your turmoil now at an end?
482
00:39:16.566 --> 00:39:18.446
Are you at peace now?
483
00:39:18.606 --> 00:39:20.566
Calm. relaxed.
484
00:39:20.726 --> 00:39:24.566
Or are you concerned and tense?
485
00:39:25.166 --> 00:39:29.006
If only I had a way of knowing.
If only...
486
00:39:30.486 --> 00:39:34.046
I just realized that we
never spoke about death.
487
00:39:34.766 --> 00:39:41.526
We always spoke about life.
hope. new places. new people.
488
00:39:41.686 --> 00:39:45.206
Plans. always plans.
489
00:40:02.566 --> 00:40:03.646
Mustafa.
490
00:40:04.646 --> 00:40:07.486
-Is the car coming? Any news?
-Yes.
491
00:40:13.846 --> 00:40:17.686
Last week at work we had a
presentation for an American company.
492
00:40:17.846 --> 00:40:20.326
Our manager wanted Ercument
to lead the presentation since his
493
00:40:20.486 --> 00:40:22.606
English was the best among us.
494
00:40:23.366 --> 00:40:25.366
He prepared a
wonderful presentation.
495
00:40:25.526 --> 00:40:28.446
For an entire hour he
explained everything so smoothly.
496
00:40:28.606 --> 00:40:31.086
The management was over the moon.
497
00:40:31.246 --> 00:40:33.406
They decided to send Ercument
on an internship to America.
498
00:40:34.086 --> 00:40:36.006
He was also happy to hear that.
499
00:40:38.646 --> 00:40:40.206
He was very accomplished.
500
00:40:40.366 --> 00:40:44.046
He was the best student in the entire
school during his student days.
501
00:40:44.206 --> 00:40:45.646
right Timur?
502
00:40:45.806 --> 00:40:48.446
Yes. He was the hardest
working one amongst us.
503
00:40:51.846 --> 00:40:53.846
Kids. we have been
on the road since morning.
504
00:40:54.006 --> 00:40:55.646
I missed both the noon
and afternoon prayer.
505
00:40:55.806 --> 00:40:58.526
I will stop somewhere to pray.
Is that okay?
506
00:40:58.686 --> 00:41:00.846
Of course.
As you wish.
507
00:42:45.286 --> 00:42:47.006
Mustafa. how
is it possible then?
508
00:42:47.566 --> 00:42:49.446
I just cannot comprehend
how much ever I think about it.
509
00:42:50.086 --> 00:42:51.126
I know.
510
00:42:53.166 --> 00:42:56.686
Why? Why? This is all that is
going through my mind.
511
00:42:57.846 --> 00:43:00.126
He didn't have
any problems. What can I say?
512
00:43:00.526 --> 00:43:02.566
I can't think of any reason at all.
513
00:43:05.126 --> 00:43:09.006
We wouldn't meet often in person
but spoke regularly on the phone.
514
00:43:09.686 --> 00:43:12.766
We didn't even have any
family problems to speak of.
515
00:43:13.166 --> 00:43:15.526
As you know. we are an ordinary family.
516
00:43:17.246 --> 00:43:18.766
How should I know?
517
00:43:19.206 --> 00:43:22.566
We didn't have a troublesome past
or a difficult childhood.
518
00:43:24.326 --> 00:43:26.686
We grew up in a town.
He must have told you all this.
519
00:43:29.166 --> 00:43:32.006
We weren't rich but we
didn't lack for anything either.
520
00:43:32.166 --> 00:43:34.046
What is adequate?
521
00:43:34.206 --> 00:43:35.886
Poverty?
522
00:43:36.286 --> 00:43:39.046
You haven't the slightest clue
about this. my elder brother.
523
00:43:39.206 --> 00:43:42.206
You never noticed how
mother ignored our very existence
524
00:43:42.366 --> 00:43:45.086
because you were the favored first born.
525
00:43:45.246 --> 00:43:47.286
How could you notice?
526
00:43:47.446 --> 00:43:50.326
You were so occupied with yourself.
527
00:43:50.486 --> 00:43:52.566
Would you
understand if I told you?
528
00:43:52.726 --> 00:43:54.206
What happened?
529
00:43:54.566 --> 00:43:55.646
Nothing.
530
00:43:56.486 --> 00:43:59.806
You are still unaware
of how selfish you are.
531
00:44:01.446 --> 00:44:03.726
Did you check your email?
Have they sent it?
532
00:44:04.286 --> 00:44:06.166
I haven't checked yet.
He has finished his prayer.
533
00:44:06.326 --> 00:44:07.046
Go ahead to the car.
534
00:44:07.206 --> 00:44:09.766
I will join you after
making a phone call.
535
00:44:35.086 --> 00:44:35.966
Hello.
536
00:44:36.126 --> 00:44:37.646
My name is Nihan.
537
00:44:37.806 --> 00:44:40.006
Is Nizamettin Hodja at home?
538
00:44:46.166 --> 00:44:47.246
... I see...
539
00:44:49.406 --> 00:44:51.286
Yes. yes. thank you.
540
00:44:52.526 --> 00:44:54.966
No it is fine.
I will call again.
541
00:44:56.406 --> 00:44:57.886
Okay. thank you.
542
00:45:05.326 --> 00:45:08.366
Any progress daughter?
Did you sort out the phone calls?
543
00:45:08.526 --> 00:45:11.566
It is starting to get dark. The workers
will have finished their shifts by now.
544
00:45:11.726 --> 00:45:13.206
I will call.
545
00:45:14.326 --> 00:45:16.886
Did you speak to the imam?
546
00:45:17.566 --> 00:45:19.846
No. I couldn't reach him yet.
547
00:45:21.646 --> 00:45:24.726
What can I tell you my child.
You refuse to listen.
548
00:45:24.886 --> 00:45:26.806
You just do as you see fit.
549
00:45:26.966 --> 00:45:29.446
I am trying to do what is right.
550
00:45:31.646 --> 00:45:34.686
Am I trying to do what is right?
551
00:45:36.126 --> 00:45:38.446
What is right anyway?
552
00:45:39.406 --> 00:45:41.686
What is right. what is wrong.
553
00:45:42.406 --> 00:45:45.006
Do you remember asking
the same thing once?
554
00:45:45.166 --> 00:45:47.406
It was the year you started university.
555
00:45:47.566 --> 00:45:49.566
You asked if you were doing
the right thing.
556
00:45:50.166 --> 00:45:53.686
For a long time I thought about
why you asked that question.
557
00:45:53.846 --> 00:45:55.686
Then I forgot all about it.
558
00:45:56.446 --> 00:45:58.206
Why did you ask that?
559
00:45:58.366 --> 00:46:00.646
What had you done wrong?
560
00:46:01.486 --> 00:46:03.326
Ercument turn around and look.
561
00:46:03.806 --> 00:46:05.726
Take a deep breath.
562
00:46:05.886 --> 00:46:07.566
Can you feel it?
563
00:46:08.206 --> 00:46:11.126
Life is as long as that breath.
564
00:46:11.766 --> 00:46:14.646
It is like a shadow that
constantly gets shorter.
565
00:46:33.966 --> 00:46:35.846
-Any news?
-No.
566
00:46:36.006 --> 00:46:37.286
Dear Allah.
567
00:46:37.446 --> 00:46:39.686
Don't panic.
I will try again in a bit.
568
00:46:39.846 --> 00:46:40.886
What if the imam has heard?
569
00:46:41.046 --> 00:46:43.006
What if he really refuses to
perform the prayer?
570
00:46:43.166 --> 00:46:44.406
How will he hear?
571
00:46:44.566 --> 00:46:46.766
Even if he does. could
he possibly be that cruel?
572
00:46:46.926 --> 00:46:49.806
What's cruel got to do with it?
I don't get it.
573
00:46:49.966 --> 00:46:53.206
The man is only saying
whatever is written in the Book.
574
00:46:53.406 --> 00:46:55.806
Fine. I don't think
the same way as him.
575
00:46:55.966 --> 00:46:59.086
After all Ercument is our
child. our flesh and blood.
576
00:46:59.246 --> 00:47:02.846
I too would like him to have
a worthy funeral ceremony.
577
00:47:03.006 --> 00:47:05.166
I am only telling you
of what could happen.
578
00:47:05.326 --> 00:47:07.606
Fine.
I'll talk to him somehow.
579
00:47:07.766 --> 00:47:08.806
I'll handle it.
580
00:47:08.966 --> 00:47:11.566
And we need to sort
out the departed's house as well.
581
00:47:11.726 --> 00:47:12.846
Huh?
582
00:47:13.006 --> 00:47:15.246
I mean his things. his clothes.
583
00:47:15.406 --> 00:47:18.486
Isn't it too early
to talk about these things?
584
00:47:18.646 --> 00:47:21.046
No. we need to think about it.
585
00:47:21.206 --> 00:47:24.686
We will sort it out Salim.
That is for a later stage.
586
00:47:24.846 --> 00:47:28.686
You know it is tradition to distribute the
belongings of the deceased
587
00:47:28.846 --> 00:47:30.046
to the poor and needy.
588
00:47:30.206 --> 00:47:32.246
We also have to speak
to the landlord and see
589
00:47:32.406 --> 00:47:34.846
if he had any outstanding
dues. debts and such.
590
00:47:35.006 --> 00:47:36.206
Okay.
591
00:47:36.366 --> 00:47:37.886
As if he is
distributing loot and bounty.
592
00:47:38.046 --> 00:47:39.606
Enough Nihan.
593
00:47:40.286 --> 00:47:41.886
What enough.
594
00:47:42.286 --> 00:47:44.846
You moved into
your new house with such excitement.
595
00:47:45.006 --> 00:47:46.006
You sounded so excited
596
00:47:46.166 --> 00:47:49.246
when you spoke of how much light
it receives from all the windows.
597
00:47:49.406 --> 00:47:54.766
How happy you were after living in
those damp smelling basement apartments.
598
00:47:54.926 --> 00:47:57.126
You said that it didn't matter
that half your salary went
599
00:47:57.286 --> 00:48:00.286
on rent because you woke
up to sunlight in your eyes.
600
00:48:00.686 --> 00:48:03.326
You always invited me to visit.
601
00:48:03.486 --> 00:48:07.766
Perhaps you wanted to show me the
changes and good things in your life.
602
00:48:07.926 --> 00:48:09.366
I always said I would come.
603
00:48:09.526 --> 00:48:13.526
It was always next week. next month...
604
00:48:13.686 --> 00:48:17.126
Those next weeks and
months never came.
605
00:48:17.286 --> 00:48:19.446
You know I struggled
to locate your apartment.
606
00:48:20.566 --> 00:48:23.806
I felt ashamed when I had to
ask your friends for directions.
607
00:48:23.966 --> 00:48:25.526
I felt really ashamed.
608
00:48:40.126 --> 00:48:43.766
Kids. we have to stop somewhere
for two minutes.
609
00:48:43.926 --> 00:48:46.806
The car seems to be
overheating constantly.
610
00:48:46.966 --> 00:48:50.006
Let me check it so we don't end up
stranded in the middle of nowhere.
611
00:48:50.166 --> 00:48:51.446
Sure.
612
00:48:52.086 --> 00:48:55.246
I can see a place up ahead.
Let me go there.
613
00:49:24.246 --> 00:49:25.806
Is there anything I can help with?
614
00:49:25.966 --> 00:49:28.846
No. go on inside.
I will join you after checking the water.
615
00:49:29.006 --> 00:49:30.646
I will have some tea later.
616
00:49:54.246 --> 00:49:55.606
I failed one subject yet again.
617
00:49:55.766 --> 00:49:58.766
It is now my 7th year in university.
618
00:49:58.926 --> 00:50:01.926
7 years? It won't end.
619
00:50:02.486 --> 00:50:04.886
Military conscription awaits.
620
00:50:05.046 --> 00:50:07.326
You will manage to
finish school somehow.
621
00:50:07.486 --> 00:50:10.046
There is the option of paid
military conscription service.
622
00:50:10.206 --> 00:50:12.646
I will use that money
to go on a world tour instead.
623
00:50:12.806 --> 00:50:13.886
And then finally Mexico.
624
00:50:14.046 --> 00:50:17.206
What world tour are you
going to do with 100.000 Liras?
625
00:50:17.366 --> 00:50:20.126
And you still have your
student loans to repay.
626
00:50:21.286 --> 00:50:25.286
I will go to Mexico and then ?
boom ? across the border to America.
627
00:50:25.446 --> 00:50:28.686
Did you ever think
of relocating to another country?
628
00:50:28.846 --> 00:50:31.206
To just leave everything behind and go.
629
00:50:31.406 --> 00:50:33.566
Without even telling anyone.
630
00:50:33.726 --> 00:50:35.286
I always thought of it.
631
00:50:35.446 --> 00:50:38.086
I even planned it but
wasn't able to do it.
632
00:50:38.246 --> 00:50:41.006
What is it that binds us to this place?
633
00:50:41.166 --> 00:50:44.126
Family? Work? Friends?
634
00:50:44.446 --> 00:50:46.926
This disgusting tea?
635
00:50:47.086 --> 00:50:49.446
Was it fear that
prevented me from going?
636
00:50:49.606 --> 00:50:51.606
Was I really afraid?
637
00:50:51.766 --> 00:50:55.966
Was I unable to leave this
monotony of a life they call comfort?
638
00:50:56.126 --> 00:50:58.406
Everyone has their own problems.
639
00:50:58.566 --> 00:51:01.206
Ours is different.
They over there have different ones.
640
00:51:04.166 --> 00:51:06.006
Why didn't you leave?
641
00:51:06.406 --> 00:51:08.606
We never talked about this.
642
00:51:08.926 --> 00:51:10.446
Or did we?
643
00:51:11.286 --> 00:51:12.686
I can't remember.
644
00:51:13.446 --> 00:51:15.606
Would things have turned
out differently if you had gone?
645
00:51:15.766 --> 00:51:17.886
Would you have found happiness?
646
00:51:18.286 --> 00:51:19.646
Happiness?
647
00:51:20.526 --> 00:51:27.126
Do we become happy by chasing
small joys; by clinging to life dearly?
648
00:51:28.006 --> 00:51:30.286
Still I wish you had gone.
649
00:51:31.806 --> 00:51:33.966
I wonder how the
people who go are doing.
650
00:51:34.486 --> 00:51:37.766
I read somewhere that
the exiled one dies.
651
00:51:37.926 --> 00:51:42.006
Then they are reborn
but as different people.
652
00:51:44.446 --> 00:51:45.326
Nihan?
653
00:51:46.566 --> 00:51:47.446
Yes?
654
00:51:47.726 --> 00:51:50.646
-Do you want anything else?
-No.
655
00:51:52.126 --> 00:51:53.646
And you Mustafa?
656
00:51:53.806 --> 00:51:55.846
No thanks.
This tea is enough.
657
00:51:59.286 --> 00:52:01.286
What's keeping my in-law?
658
00:52:02.526 --> 00:52:04.046
Let me go check on him.
659
00:52:33.966 --> 00:52:37.966
Years ago I was a court
reporter at the newspaper I worked for.
660
00:52:38.966 --> 00:52:41.406
Perhaps Ercument mentioned it.
661
00:52:42.246 --> 00:52:43.526
Yes.
662
00:52:47.766 --> 00:52:51.526
I was supposed to write a
series about the Coroner's Office.
663
00:52:53.046 --> 00:52:55.246
A series with parts.
664
00:53:01.206 --> 00:53:03.846
The first part was about autopsies.
665
00:53:06.326 --> 00:53:11.126
I went there with Sinan.
a photographer I worked with.
666
00:53:12.886 --> 00:53:16.606
Together we were supposed to go to...
667
00:53:16.886 --> 00:53:20.686
...go and talk to the
doctors who do autopsy.
668
00:53:22.166 --> 00:53:27.366
Interview them. ask them questions
about their mental health.
669
00:53:30.486 --> 00:53:32.006
Anyway we went.
670
00:53:33.566 --> 00:53:37.006
They took us into the room
where they perform autopsies.
671
00:53:38.166 --> 00:53:40.006
It was freezing cold in there.
672
00:53:41.366 --> 00:53:44.486
Metal tables everywhere.
673
00:53:45.726 --> 00:53:49.526
I wasn't too keen to enter but had to.
674
00:53:49.726 --> 00:53:53.406
They said we should see it first
if we were to learn about our work.
675
00:53:57.966 --> 00:54:00.366
There are doctors working in there.
676
00:54:00.526 --> 00:54:01.846
They don't care.
677
00:54:02.006 --> 00:54:07.126
They have their music turned
on. and are joking with each other.
678
00:54:09.966 --> 00:54:12.566
On one of the tables...
679
00:54:13.526 --> 00:54:17.166
...is the corpse of a small boy.
680
00:54:19.166 --> 00:54:21.726
His head on one side.
his body on another.
681
00:54:21.886 --> 00:54:24.206
His father was
schizophrenic or something.
682
00:54:24.366 --> 00:54:25.486
He had cut up the child.
683
00:54:25.646 --> 00:54:27.646
There were doing an autopsy.
684
00:54:28.126 --> 00:54:30.446
The doctor is
explaining the situation.
685
00:54:31.366 --> 00:54:34.606
I don't want to look.
I turn my head away.
686
00:54:34.766 --> 00:54:38.046
I shut my eyes.
But there is this machine they use.
687
00:54:38.206 --> 00:54:42.606
It makes a sound...
688
00:54:46.006 --> 00:54:48.126
I am standing there. just standing.
689
00:54:48.286 --> 00:54:49.966
Sinan fainted and collapsed.
690
00:54:51.366 --> 00:54:53.166
Must have been tough.
691
00:54:56.566 --> 00:54:58.286
That day I told myself
692
00:54:59.726 --> 00:55:04.846
No one will ever be able to
make me enter such a place again.
693
00:55:07.406 --> 00:55:08.766
Life...
694
00:55:11.966 --> 00:55:17.926
Really we are tested by the
very things we fear the most.
695
00:55:21.326 --> 00:55:22.246
True.
696
00:55:47.806 --> 00:55:52.326
The departed. Ercument.
he used to speak about you a lot.
697
00:55:54.526 --> 00:55:55.446
Really?
698
00:55:58.646 --> 00:55:59.926
What would he say?
699
00:56:02.406 --> 00:56:05.326
Everyday he would purchase the newspaper
you write for.
700
00:56:05.566 --> 00:56:08.166
If you had an article. he
would show it to the entire office.
701
00:56:08.326 --> 00:56:11.246
Sometimes he would even
read your pieces out aloud.
702
00:56:11.646 --> 00:56:13.206
He was very proud of you.
703
00:56:16.606 --> 00:56:20.046
May he live long...
look at what I just said.
704
00:56:20.206 --> 00:56:25.526
I mean... He never spoke to me
about my articles.
705
00:56:28.566 --> 00:56:30.766
Let's see what my sister has written
today.
706
00:56:30.926 --> 00:56:34.566
He would start by saying let's see
who she has taken on today.
707
00:56:35.366 --> 00:56:38.766
He loved you a lot. He would talk about
you to everyone.
708
00:56:45.126 --> 00:56:47.726
How was he with others. Mustafa?
709
00:56:49.486 --> 00:56:50.406
Good.
710
00:56:50.566 --> 00:56:53.206
He didn't appear to
have issues with anyone.
711
00:57:00.206 --> 00:57:03.246
Then why did he do such a thing?
712
00:57:09.926 --> 00:57:12.126
I don't know Ms. Nihan.
713
00:57:12.606 --> 00:57:15.566
I spoke to some other friends
too. and everyone is in shock.
714
00:57:15.726 --> 00:57:17.286
Nobody knows anything.
715
00:57:23.286 --> 00:57:25.606
Not knowing is a very bad thing.
716
00:57:29.766 --> 00:57:30.686
True.
717
00:57:36.686 --> 00:57:39.086
I wish we could know.
718
00:57:40.486 --> 00:57:43.046
Perhaps then it would
be easier to accept.
719
00:57:44.646 --> 00:57:46.846
Were you proud of me?
720
00:57:47.006 --> 00:57:49.486
You never told me anything.
721
00:57:49.846 --> 00:57:51.326
I wish I knew.
722
00:57:51.886 --> 00:57:53.886
Not that it would change anything.
723
00:57:54.286 --> 00:57:56.286
Perhaps it would change a lot of things...
724
00:57:56.726 --> 00:57:58.966
I always imagined you
didn't like my articles.
725
00:57:59.126 --> 00:58:01.926
and that sometimes you
were even ashamed of me.
726
00:58:02.086 --> 00:58:05.166
You always thought I compromise
too much and seek a middle path.
727
00:58:05.326 --> 00:58:07.606
Am I really like that?
The centrist?
728
00:58:08.486 --> 00:58:11.246
Do I lack principles in
this age when everyone
729
00:58:11.406 --> 00:58:13.326
draws their swords and
are ready to go to war?
730
00:58:14.006 --> 00:58:17.286
What's going to change if I write.
if I fight?
731
00:58:17.766 --> 00:58:20.126
What legacy will I leave behind
in this world?
732
00:58:20.286 --> 00:58:22.086
What has anybody left?
733
00:58:22.366 --> 00:58:24.726
For example. what legacy did you leave?
734
00:58:24.886 --> 00:58:27.326
I wish we could talk about these things.
735
00:58:29.566 --> 00:58:31.286
What's wrong with the car Salim?
736
00:58:31.446 --> 00:58:34.726
The radiator was leaking a bit.
737
00:58:34.886 --> 00:58:35.886
I topped up the water.
738
00:58:36.046 --> 00:58:39.326
Nothing to worry about.
It will get us to the village.
739
00:58:40.126 --> 00:58:41.686
Didn't you order tea?
740
00:58:41.846 --> 00:58:43.366
I will order now.
741
00:58:43.526 --> 00:58:45.206
Can we have a tea?
742
00:58:49.086 --> 00:58:50.846
Where is your hometown Mustafa?
743
00:58:51.006 --> 00:58:52.486
I am from Rize.
744
00:58:53.606 --> 00:58:55.526
The land of tea then.
745
00:58:55.686 --> 00:58:58.086
You won't like this stuff here.
746
00:58:58.246 --> 00:59:00.886
It is the same everywhere.
No difference.
747
00:59:03.886 --> 00:59:07.806
Their father wouldn't leave
the beer hall when he was young.
748
00:59:07.966 --> 00:59:09.526
He never even came home.
749
00:59:09.686 --> 00:59:12.766
One day in the coffeehouse
they asked their father.
750
00:59:12.926 --> 00:59:15.806
'what grade is
your daughter in?'
751
00:59:15.966 --> 00:59:17.366
He didn't know.
752
00:59:19.526 --> 00:59:22.206
It upset him on the inside.
753
00:59:22.566 --> 00:59:26.646
It wasn't because
he didn't care.
754
00:59:26.966 --> 00:59:28.606
That's just how it was in those times.
755
00:59:29.046 --> 00:59:31.326
-Isn't that so Nihan?
-Yes.
756
00:59:33.766 --> 00:59:35.606
Bless you.
757
00:59:39.206 --> 00:59:43.966
In those days they sold
beer and stuff in coffeehouses.
758
00:59:44.126 --> 00:59:47.206
You could get whatever you wanted
when you boarded a train for example.
759
00:59:47.366 --> 00:59:48.606
It was permitted.
760
00:59:49.446 --> 00:59:52.406
Of course our guy came to
his senses as he grew older.
761
00:59:52.566 --> 00:59:54.646
He pulled himself together.
762
00:59:54.806 --> 00:59:58.366
Then he took his wife and
went on the Hajj pilgrimage.
763
00:59:58.526 --> 01:00:02.926
If you only see him now.
he is so religious.
764
01:00:03.166 --> 01:00:06.566
What's it to do with age?
765
01:00:06.726 --> 01:00:08.886
We were crushed by a military coup d'état.
766
01:00:09.046 --> 01:00:11.366
This change happened to everyone.
767
01:00:11.806 --> 01:00:15.886
That has nothing to do with it.
It is about aging.
768
01:00:16.286 --> 01:00:18.566
That's so. I mean.
769
01:00:19.046 --> 01:00:22.126
We start becoming more aware of the
earth we will lie under the older we get.
770
01:00:22.286 --> 01:00:25.486
You are young now
and don't understand of course.
771
01:00:26.606 --> 01:00:28.766
As we age...
772
01:00:31.366 --> 01:00:34.446
The fear of death arrives.
You are right.
773
01:00:34.646 --> 01:00:36.886
My parents are the same.
774
01:00:38.286 --> 01:00:39.806
True.
775
01:00:40.286 --> 01:00:41.846
You are right.
776
01:00:42.926 --> 01:00:45.046
Let's see how we turn out.
777
01:00:45.206 --> 01:00:46.566
God is great.
778
01:00:49.766 --> 01:00:51.566
The tea is good.
779
01:01:29.286 --> 01:01:30.846
And I am not frightened of dying.
780
01:01:31.486 --> 01:01:34.206
Any time will do. I don't mind.
781
01:01:34.366 --> 01:01:37.166
Why should I be frightened of dying?
782
01:01:37.326 --> 01:01:40.326
There's no reason for it.
you've gotta go sometime.
783
01:01:41.846 --> 01:01:43.926
Was this what the song says?
784
01:01:44.086 --> 01:01:47.446
Those who live their
lives well don't fear death.
785
01:01:47.606 --> 01:01:50.286
That is what I once read
somewhere by some philosopher.
786
01:01:50.446 --> 01:01:52.726
Did you live your life to the fullest?
787
01:01:52.886 --> 01:01:54.926
Was there nothing left?
788
01:01:55.686 --> 01:01:58.406
I am afraid of death.
Very afraid actually.
789
01:01:58.566 --> 01:02:00.966
I constantly feel like
something is left undone.
790
01:02:01.126 --> 01:02:03.966
Regrets. unaccomplished things.
791
01:02:04.126 --> 01:02:08.406
What is it that I haven't done.
I wonder?
792
01:02:09.006 --> 01:02:10.966
What am I afraid of?
793
01:02:11.126 --> 01:02:14.246
Do I wish immortality for myself?
794
01:02:22.526 --> 01:02:23.446
Hello...
795
01:02:25.206 --> 01:02:26.406
Yes. Mr. Ekrem hello.
796
01:02:26.566 --> 01:02:30.126
I am Nihan. a friend of Kerem.
797
01:02:32.326 --> 01:02:34.406
Kerem must have mentioned it to you.
798
01:02:34.566 --> 01:02:36.086
We have a death.
799
01:02:36.246 --> 01:02:38.806
We want to do the burial tomorrow.
800
01:02:39.286 --> 01:02:43.246
I wanted to ask if he could
be kept in the morgue tonight.
801
01:02:45.126 --> 01:02:46.646
Yes. a close relation.
802
01:02:48.006 --> 01:02:49.926
Thank you. thank you.
803
01:02:52.766 --> 01:02:53.646
Okay.
804
01:02:55.246 --> 01:02:56.326
Okay.
805
01:02:58.246 --> 01:03:00.686
Thank you very much. Mr. Ekrem.
806
01:03:01.926 --> 01:03:03.526
Sure. sure.
807
01:03:03.846 --> 01:03:05.766
Sure. Good evening.
808
01:03:26.926 --> 01:03:29.726
Hello. this is Nihan...
809
01:03:34.286 --> 01:03:38.166
Okay.
I will call again...
810
01:03:39.846 --> 01:03:42.366
Okay. thank you...
811
01:03:49.926 --> 01:03:51.566
I spoke to the chief doctor.
It's arranged.
812
01:03:51.726 --> 01:03:54.046
-Good.
-But the hodja hasn't come yet.
813
01:03:54.206 --> 01:03:55.366
I'll call him again.
814
01:03:55.526 --> 01:03:57.486
Nihan spoke with the chief doctor.
815
01:03:57.646 --> 01:03:59.366
We will head directly to the hospital.
816
01:03:59.526 --> 01:04:01.326
Mustafa you'll call the car
and inform them.
817
01:04:01.486 --> 01:04:02.486
I will send a text.
818
01:04:02.686 --> 01:04:05.126
So what then? Are we going directly
to the hospital?
819
01:04:05.286 --> 01:04:06.566
Yes we are going to the hospital.
820
01:04:06.726 --> 01:04:09.446
You call my parents and tell them
to come directly there.
821
01:04:09.606 --> 01:04:10.806
Look my daughter.
822
01:04:10.966 --> 01:04:14.006
won't your mother and father understand
once they see the body?
823
01:04:14.166 --> 01:04:17.006
No they won't.
They won't. Okay?
824
01:04:17.166 --> 01:04:19.006
Lie after lie.
825
01:04:19.166 --> 01:04:21.286
I cannot bear this burden my girl.
826
01:04:21.446 --> 01:04:23.806
Look at me.
I can't lie so much.
827
01:04:23.966 --> 01:04:25.966
-This is a sin.
-Fine.
828
01:04:26.126 --> 01:04:28.526
The sin and everything
else is on me okay?
829
01:04:28.686 --> 01:04:31.206
You don't need to bear any burden.
It is all on me.
830
01:04:31.366 --> 01:04:32.686
Come on Nihan.
The man didn't say anything.
831
01:04:32.846 --> 01:04:35.006
I didn't say anything.
I am just saying I won't commit a sin.
832
01:04:35.166 --> 01:04:36.726
Don't commit a sin. don't.
833
01:04:36.886 --> 01:04:38.566
I will speak to whoever is up there.
834
01:04:38.726 --> 01:04:40.206
All the sins are mine. okay?
835
01:04:40.366 --> 01:04:42.086
Enough Nihan.
Get in the car.
836
01:05:16.886 --> 01:05:18.886
What did sin mean to you?
837
01:05:19.046 --> 01:05:21.166
When was the first time
you heard that word?
838
01:05:21.326 --> 01:05:26.286
Was it when you heard that rice grains cry
when left uneaten on the plate?
839
01:05:26.446 --> 01:05:29.246
Remember that time when you
removed a grain of uneaten rice
840
01:05:29.406 --> 01:05:31.366
and kept it under your pillow.
841
01:05:31.526 --> 01:05:35.446
The next morning you showed it
to me and said. "look it hasn't cried."
842
01:05:35.606 --> 01:05:39.206
I am trying to remember the
first time I heard the word sin.
843
01:05:39.366 --> 01:05:40.926
I can't recall.
844
01:05:41.086 --> 01:05:42.766
Was it when I dropped a
piece of bread on the floor?
845
01:05:42.926 --> 01:05:44.686
Or when I complained
about not liking some food?
846
01:05:44.886 --> 01:05:48.126
Or when I kicked back my
skirt and started dancing?
847
01:05:48.286 --> 01:05:54.126
You know all they want is for us to
feel guilty and regret having pleasure.
848
01:05:54.846 --> 01:05:56.726
That is what sin means to them...
849
01:06:04.086 --> 01:06:07.126
Kids. we have less than
an hour's drive left.
850
01:06:07.286 --> 01:06:09.966
I say let's sort out the food as well.
851
01:06:10.126 --> 01:06:11.926
I spoke to my children.
852
01:06:12.846 --> 01:06:14.206
What food?
853
01:06:15.966 --> 01:06:19.846
It is tradition to serve food to
those who visit after the funeral.
854
01:06:20.006 --> 01:06:21.606
It brings blessings.
855
01:06:21.766 --> 01:06:26.446
Either pide and ayran
or meat and rice etc.
856
01:06:26.606 --> 01:06:27.686
Sure of course.
857
01:06:30.446 --> 01:06:32.566
What do you say Nihan?
858
01:06:33.766 --> 01:06:35.486
About what?
859
01:06:36.126 --> 01:06:38.526
The food.
What should we have prepared?
860
01:06:39.246 --> 01:06:41.686
As if this is the only thing
left to worry about.
861
01:06:41.846 --> 01:06:44.246
What did you say daughter?
I couldn't hear you.
862
01:06:45.006 --> 01:06:48.806
I said okay.
Whatever you think is suitable.
863
01:06:50.286 --> 01:06:55.726
I will tell the boys to make
arrangements for pide and ayran .
864
01:07:01.966 --> 01:07:05.646
How would you react were you to hear
this discussion about pide or a meal?
865
01:07:05.806 --> 01:07:07.886
You would have burst out laughing
for sure.
866
01:07:08.046 --> 01:07:10.086
Do you remember when
you were in high school and
867
01:07:10.246 --> 01:07:13.046
this food thing came up at
our grandmother's funeral.
868
01:07:13.206 --> 01:07:17.126
We were exhausted after having
to serve food to all the relatives.
869
01:07:17.286 --> 01:07:19.526
One of the women even
poked you and asked for ayran
870
01:07:19.686 --> 01:07:21.366
saying the food was too dry to swallow.
871
01:07:21.526 --> 01:07:23.846
You burst into laughter.
872
01:07:24.886 --> 01:07:27.926
Of course the talk of the
village then became Ercument
873
01:07:28.086 --> 01:07:30.966
made fun of his own
grandmother at her funeral.
874
01:07:31.286 --> 01:07:33.486
My mother still talks about it.
875
01:07:33.646 --> 01:07:36.646
Was it all this rubbish
that you escaped from?
876
01:07:38.806 --> 01:07:41.086
-Timur.
-Yes?
877
01:07:41.446 --> 01:07:45.846
Did the departed ask you for a loan?
878
01:07:46.406 --> 01:07:49.006
I ask because he asked me for one.
879
01:07:49.166 --> 01:07:51.326
Yes he asked me as well.
880
01:07:51.846 --> 01:07:54.406
He said he needed it
for a friend or something.
881
01:07:54.566 --> 01:07:57.606
I was short of cash at the
time so I couldn't do anything.
882
01:07:59.286 --> 01:08:01.806
No.
I took care of that.
883
01:08:07.526 --> 01:08:10.006
Did you know anything
about this Mustafa?
884
01:08:11.006 --> 01:08:12.726
It was for me.
885
01:08:15.606 --> 01:08:22.526
I didn't think it would have been for you
since you said you were not very close.
886
01:08:25.646 --> 01:08:28.086
We weren't very close
but we were friends.
887
01:08:29.486 --> 01:08:31.526
Did he owe you money or something?
888
01:08:31.966 --> 01:08:33.766
No. it wasn't to repay a debt.
889
01:08:33.926 --> 01:08:36.326
I needed it for personal reasons.
890
01:08:36.806 --> 01:08:39.206
I had overdrawn on my credit cards.
891
01:08:39.366 --> 01:08:42.086
Ercument was trying to help me out.
bless him.
892
01:08:44.206 --> 01:08:46.246
Yes the departed was very good.
893
01:08:46.406 --> 01:08:48.966
He always tried to help others.
894
01:08:49.126 --> 01:08:51.606
He would try his best.
895
01:08:52.006 --> 01:08:54.526
Even as a child he was like that.
896
01:08:55.286 --> 01:08:57.206
What happened to the loan then?
897
01:08:57.366 --> 01:08:59.326
Did he pay you back?
898
01:08:59.486 --> 01:09:02.246
That is not an issue.
It is not why I asked.
899
01:09:03.406 --> 01:09:06.886
I am just trying to figure out
what problems he might have had.
900
01:09:08.526 --> 01:09:11.006
Remember you called me two days ago.
901
01:09:11.166 --> 01:09:15.686
I said I was going into a meeting and
would call you back as soon as it ended.
902
01:09:15.846 --> 01:09:17.806
I forgot to call you back.
903
01:09:17.966 --> 01:09:19.406
Why did I forget?
904
01:09:19.566 --> 01:09:22.246
As if that meeting was that important.
905
01:09:22.406 --> 01:09:24.726
What did you want to tell me?
906
01:09:24.886 --> 01:09:27.006
What would you have spoken about?
907
01:09:27.166 --> 01:09:29.406
Would you have told me.
had we spoken?
908
01:09:29.566 --> 01:09:32.166
Would I have been able
to change your mind?
909
01:09:32.326 --> 01:09:35.206
How distant we actually
were from each other.
910
01:09:35.366 --> 01:09:38.886
They say the deepest pain are
those which are never mentioned.
911
01:09:39.046 --> 01:09:40.686
That is true.
912
01:09:41.726 --> 01:09:45.126
Who knows what inner turmoil
you faced but never mentioned.
913
01:09:45.486 --> 01:09:48.126
Perhaps you did
and we just didn't hear.
914
01:09:48.286 --> 01:09:51.486
When did these thick walls
grow between us?
915
01:09:51.646 --> 01:09:54.046
When did I become so selfish?
916
01:09:54.726 --> 01:09:58.126
When did I develop such a thick skin?
When?
917
01:09:59.246 --> 01:10:02.646
Let me stop by the Hodja's place.
He must have returned home by now.
918
01:10:02.806 --> 01:10:04.886
After that we can go to the hospital.
919
01:10:05.926 --> 01:10:07.006
Sure.
920
01:10:08.006 --> 01:10:09.446
I can come with you if you like.
921
01:10:09.606 --> 01:10:11.686
No. I will speak to him.
922
01:10:28.606 --> 01:10:33.286
Daughter. this is Nizamettin
Hodja's house if you want to speak to him.
923
01:10:36.486 --> 01:10:38.086
You wait. I will be back.
924
01:10:38.246 --> 01:10:39.406
Should I come with you?
925
01:10:39.566 --> 01:10:41.526
No. I said I will take care of it.
926
01:11:06.326 --> 01:11:07.126
Hodja.
927
01:11:07.286 --> 01:11:08.806
My condolences daughter.
928
01:11:09.006 --> 01:11:10.486
Thank you hodja.
929
01:11:10.886 --> 01:11:13.086
What happened?
How did it happen?
930
01:11:14.606 --> 01:11:16.366
An accident hodja.
931
01:11:17.166 --> 01:11:20.126
On the highway as he
was returning from work.
932
01:11:20.286 --> 01:11:25.206
He lost control of the car
and crashed into the barriers.
933
01:11:25.846 --> 01:11:30.086
Dear Allah. And people are all
saying different things.
934
01:11:30.406 --> 01:11:32.006
What are they saying hodja?
935
01:11:32.166 --> 01:11:33.686
Never mind.
936
01:11:37.766 --> 01:11:42.806
Hodja. if it is okay
with you too I was wondering
937
01:11:42.966 --> 01:11:47.726
if we could bury the
body after noon prayers tomorrow.
938
01:11:47.886 --> 01:11:50.366
I am not sure.
The weather is hot.
939
01:11:50.686 --> 01:11:53.886
Your parents say we shouldn't wait
and perform the burial straight away.
940
01:11:54.046 --> 01:11:56.806
I spoke to the chief doctor
at the hospital.
941
01:11:56.966 --> 01:11:58.886
They will keep him
in the morgue tonight.
942
01:11:59.126 --> 01:12:01.406
That is not a problem.
That is arranged.
943
01:12:01.566 --> 01:12:04.686
If we bury him tomorrow. then
his friends will also be able to come.
944
01:12:04.846 --> 01:12:06.846
Of course if it is okay with you too.
945
01:12:07.006 --> 01:12:09.086
Speak to your parents.
946
01:12:09.646 --> 01:12:11.646
It is okay with me.
947
01:12:12.726 --> 01:12:14.206
Thank you hodja.
948
01:12:14.366 --> 01:12:16.526
Condolences again daughter.
949
01:12:16.846 --> 01:12:19.086
May Allah grant him a place in heaven.
950
01:12:19.246 --> 01:12:21.486
Thank you.
Good night.
951
01:12:29.046 --> 01:12:31.166
Okay.
It is okay with the hodja.
952
01:12:59.126 --> 01:13:01.846
Can you please stop for a while?
953
01:13:04.046 --> 01:13:05.566
Sure daughter.
954
01:13:30.326 --> 01:13:32.366
Where is this world headed now?
955
01:13:32.526 --> 01:13:34.486
Where are you headed?
956
01:13:34.646 --> 01:13:38.726
Are you headed far away from
all these plants. trees. stars?
957
01:13:39.086 --> 01:13:42.246
Will you be able to find your way
in that infinite nothingness?
958
01:13:42.686 --> 01:13:45.206
Can you hear space breathe?
959
01:13:46.046 --> 01:13:48.166
Is it getting colder there?
960
01:13:49.286 --> 01:13:53.006
Isn't it getting darker and darker?
961
01:13:53.966 --> 01:13:56.046
Will we meet again?
962
01:13:56.526 --> 01:13:59.646
Will we be able to find
each other in that darkness?
963
01:14:00.446 --> 01:14:04.246
There is so much I have to tell you...
964
01:15:11.166 --> 01:15:14.086
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